i lose myself
i keep thinking why am i crying and feel lost all the time, eventho i started something really good for my wellbeing why does it have to come with lots of goodbyes, why does it hurts so much like this? why do i keep wanting you to choose me and not letting me go.
all the things that i do right now are just pulling me away from you, that's what hurting. why should i lose you? why on earth should i be feelin this? i am afraid to walk in this track, i know i should be running but why everything keeps pushing me to walk away from you? why it should be you that should be gone, jar?
why after everything that goin through, after i put my all, i came to you, why you came to her and open the way to communicate again, why? why im left being scared that you two may go back together again and left me alone again? why after everything i did, i still not got your back, why is it hard for me, why is it hard for you to love me?
why do i keep want to cry