halo! its august 14 2025
halo! if i may tell this to you guys, that girl text me again and askin abt my college and idk why, like why did she ask me out of all people, out of all AI, i told my besties and they too, feel disgusted, hehe.
i didn't read it for half a day and i just answer it, but she, too, didn't read my text at all. and i feel ok maybe she gets it that i didn't feel comfortable for doing that kind of convos with her because of our backstory, if i may be too much for others i just have to remind myself that my friends, who also know the story, they feel disgusted too, so i guess it's real, i'm not just "over emotional" or feel too deeply, it's normal to feel this way. my boyfriend even said that why didn't i just block her?
if you guys asking the same, it's because i want to end this cycle, blocking are just running from the real world, this may happen again in the future so instead of facing this in the future i just wanna face everything that should happened now.
that is how i read the pattern of this story, i know that i would get overwhelmed too if someday i already healed and this past comes up popped out of nowhere.
okay skip to the present, well what i did today is i'm studying international law, so fun that i get to know about 'ne bis in idem' and 'pacta sunt servanta', i always think that i chose the wrong major but i believe everytime i'm studying about law and knows even more, i get more excited and happy as i feel right now.
it may be just a words for others, that has nothing to do with statistic, aljabar, neurosience, SQL, technic and else but i find it super cool.
God, may I be one of those cool person in this fields? maybe became someone in United Nation, or other international organizations? May I, God?
I also searching for a job, I could write like this, or if there are people that reading my blog just now and from Indonesia, Bandung, can you give me a job? it's my email: putriasalma.azzahra@gmail.com
I know it's so strange and there are probably no one seeing this but, I just let the universe do the work!
Have a nice day!