Gimana pendapat kamu tentang makan malem sendirian, hangout sendirian, atau pergi nonton bioskop sendirian?
menurut aku, depends on a lot of things sih, kalo lagi stabil keadaan mentalnya dan cenderung terpenuhi kebutuhannya, gaada yang ngeganjel, then doin all of those above would be very joyful, gaakan ada konotasi 'bad' at all because i would really enjoyed it. tapi kalau dalam mental state yang kebalikannya, tentu bakal ga enak sih rasanya kayaknya, bakal kerasa kesepian banget, ngga oke banget deh.
kalo harus dikembangin dari prompt ini, jujur bisa panjang juga, dan aku lagi pengen juga manjangin, i'm in a good mood for this.
personally when it comes to do things alone, kadang aku happy saja, kayak, "oh akhirnya aku bisa spend time sendiri, akhirnya bisa tercapai keinginan pergi kesini", dan ya happy. di lain waktu, kesendirian itu dilakukan karena kebetulan partner lagi ngga bisa nemenin, temen ngga ada waktu luang, dan pokoknya, there's no more patience in mind for waiting the 'right' moment, kayak "ah udah lah sendiri aja perginya, toh mereka ini, toh waktunya sedikit lagi"
seringnya aku pergi sendiri karena: kalo nunggu temen lama, kalo nunggu pasangan lagi sibuk, temen yang lain seleranya beda. sisanya jadi enjoy aja karena jadi ngga bergantung sama ketersediaan orang lain, toh aku bersedia hadir untuk diriku.
ini kayakk dua mata pisau, kalo lagi mellow banget i would definitely say it like "ngga ada yang mau main sama aku" kind of words, tapi karena kali ini aku sedang super happy (alhamdulillah), then i would say its just like i'm doin self date.
i love self date so much, aku bisa take control of everything, i'm completely on my own. biasanya aku udah research dari lama, terus lihat lokasinya, looked into the most detailed review by others on social media, check on the price, the parkin place, the payment methods, is it okay if i go there alone, i collected as much information as possible that could help me, kayak bikin jadwal dan perencanaan matang sendiri! and i almost never missed anything! i really am happpyyy.
also, i just noticed that when i'm mad, super mad, kayak get annoyed really bad and had experience those negative things i'd run into self date, apalagi kalau sudah beli parfum, I LOVE PARFUM SO MUCH, i actually finally get one direct approach from someone kayak gini, "neng pake parfum apa ih meni wangi terus? belinya di shopee? wangi banget neng"
DISITU AKU HAAAPPPYYY BANGETTT! damn huhu love banget.
yeah agak melenceng wkwk gapapa ya. ya, aku sering self date dan itu aku suka banget kalo lagi bad mood dan butuh sesuatu untuk naikin lagi in a very good wayy.
beberapa hal yang self date banget kayak nonton bioskop sendiri kadang annoying banget karena aku juga pengen ditemenin dan ya beda aja rasanya kalo ditemenin.
jadi semuanya depends aja deh, depends on what kind of activity that i goes, cuma ya, i take that as a wonderful experience aja!
i love being around me and i love being around people that i admire, jadiiii, am okay with that tapi kalau ditemenin bakal lebbbbiiiih haaapppppyyyyy!
dah! see you around asap, yaya! love you so much beautiful!<3