eh, halo!
aaaah aku pernah bilang gaakan nulis disini lagi karena rasanya ga aman(?), dan ini aku lagi impulsif aja sih nulis lagi.
setelah lihat tanggal terakhir aku nulisss, waaaah, itu half a year agooo daaamn!
kamu, yaya, kamu pasti ga nyangka apa aja yang udah terjadi selama 6 bulan itu, ya ngga surprising sih kalo dipikir secara logika karena itu rentang waktu yang cukup lama untuk seseorang mengalami banyak hal. tapi kalau ngomongin "kamu", ngomongin "putria", ngomongin "yaya" yang selalu lebih banyak hanya hidup di dalam pikiran dan imajinasi aja, ini truly amazing! keren bet, kayak, I don't even think I would be here gitu dengan mental state yang udah develop, dengan tempat yang bener-bener udah beda juga.
by the time I wrote this down, aku terakhir kali buka laptop ini satu bulan lalu, itu juga karena aku cari lowongan kerja, karena ada sesuatu yang very heartbreaking buat kita sampai memutuskan buat out dan surprisingly dapat kerjaan persis satu minggu dari hari resign, nothing more, bener-bener you did well these past months put, you endure it so well.
ada baik dan kurang baik juga, what did you expect to happened?? (jangan marah yeeee we do our best tau)))).
I would probably write things down here again untuk memperbaiki bahasa inggris aku yang kayaknya makin menurunn, mau merekam perjalanan aku untuk grow and glow up jugaa, kamuuuu gaakannn nyangka bahwa kitaa sekarang ngapainnnnn.
aku, kita, kamu, udah ga kerja di tempat itu lagi, not saying its a bad things cuma di waktu akhir emang kamu gakuat banget because they even mock you for being slow and they made a group chat without you but with a new employee, times when that person said that you are so slow at working, that boss only defend you, when you got locked because you cant finish the crazy job desk in time.
we broke up, get together again with mo, and broke up again for sure. he's a good man but you didnt see its worth waiting. you meet that guy who always liked your story and found out that he's not from the same city as you and he drive a motorbike he borrowed from the hotels he lived in, for 30-40km at night just to see you and drink coffee with you T_T thanks my frienddd (and he gave us a book^^), after that we started to go out again with our guy friend, real friend, then put some boundaries, cut ties with suls, you would never thought that you can shut down any possibilities on them. some days you feel good for putting yourself first but another time you agree with your friends saying "you really make anyone your enemies".
but surely being the second or even last options are so bad like I never made an appointment with smone and just cancel it like the other one is not prepared anything for the catch up. so I go, I love myself for that because I dont have to beg or say "its okay they doesnt mean to do that".
i prolly got a call from god to because my muslim friend ask me if I can gave meals and milk to the orphanage, he sends the money and I am the one who bought and give it anddd its a good time because I tried kebab, go to the store to try the regular and the premium one, bought a strawberry milk, I am happy, and I thanked him for choosing me to have this mission, and he also thanked me for my effort.
God bless u all, I love yapping, i will yap here as much as I want.
I had an idea from the tok's vid who made biodata so it would be easier for her next partner to know her, I wanted to do that too but... why don't I just write things here and show him? WKWKWKWK, I think that would be cute.
love you putria, aku, kamu, yaya, zahra, us, we, love you so much beautiful, gorgeous, charming, smart, genius, looove uuuu sooomuuuch!
see ya next time!1!1!1!
with love, za